Sabin Duvert: ((Actually - why don't you set the scene with Purr))
Sabin Duvert: ((since I'm coming to your place))
Samantha Blaire: *Purrpurr has been oddly hermit-like since Prom. No one reports seeing her around Fa'e HQ (or Morion for that manner), and mostly stays in her room. Kamiki is gone alot- busy with her clinic- and Purrpurr seems to have lost interest in most of her other playmates in the house*
Sabin Duvert: *before she ever hears the knock, she can feel his presence. At first it almost seems as if it's unreal - she's never felt him before in this lifetime. Then, as a resolute knock sounds on the front door of Kamiki's estate, the jolt comes to her that this is real - here and now. Lanuccus*
Samantha Blaire: *Purrpurr almost drops her journal she's fussing with at the sound of the knock. An odd feeling - nostaligic and almost creepy- fills her chest as she makes her way to the front door.*
Sabin Duvert: *he waits, his back to the door as he looks out over the grounds, thoughts tumbling over eachother in his mind as he wonders what exactly he is going to say... how he will even be able to look her in the eyes*
Samantha Blaire: *she pulls open the heavy wooden door, staring in shock before its even open enough to reveal who's behind it. Her knees seem to weaken as her eyes rest upon the figure standing there- she doesn't even realize its Mordath for a few moments....all she sees is the man from Titania's past... in the flesh- standing at her door*
Sabin Duvert: *He turns quickly as the door is opened, straightening. His form is regal, confident at first, but his eyes belay his hesitance, his anxiety, the aura is strong now - no longer an intermittant thing that it tapped into, but a feeling of dark power around the tall man. His mouth opens and yet no sound issues forth as his eyes wander her face, memories screaming forth, seeing blue blood on his hands, seeing the pain and the betrayed look on her face... he has to blink a few times before the coffee-toned skin becomes purple again in his eyes and he remembers where... and when he is*
Samantha Blaire: *Purrpurr doesn't seem to really believe what she's seeing at first* L.... lannacus???
Sabin Duvert: *his wings rustle softly behind him, the shadows under the eaves of the front door twining in tune with his restlessness, and she could swear she could see two red eyes mirrored in their movements* Titania..... *he draws the name out hesitantly, his purring voice seeming uncharacteristically broken*
Samantha Blaire: *Purrpurr seems to wobble on her feet for a moment- her mind racing trying to decide if she's dreaming or not--- for some reason not associating him to Mordath at the moment - almost like the realization that its only Mordath standing there will bring her into a crashing halt back to reality. She seems at a loss of what to for a moment, before collapsing into him*
Samantha Blaire: *her arms clasping tight around him as her knees weaken*
Sabin Duvert: *his eyes widen as she takes this action - this unexpected action - the part of his mind that is Lanuccus is dominant, and expected anger, betrayal... such as was her last moments... and the crushing grief as he read the letter that she had been penning... but not this... He clung to her as she fell into him, using her for just as much stabilization as she him - a mental rock... He held her silently for a few moments, squeezing his eyes closed as he felt her pressed against him, the smell, the feeling so familiar. Finally, he quietly spoke up* How... How could you forgive me.....?
Samantha Blaire: *The events seem like yesterday- instead of the unknown decades that passed- as she clings to him* I was a coward.. I should have stood up to Oberon, I never should have denied it. I denied everything - I never once stood up for what I truly felt. Lies, shadows, secrets, double meanings, ulterior motives - my whole life... and it finally caught up to me...
Sabin Duvert: *he winces as the admission comes from her own lips, the relief flooding him that she understands even this much, that she remembers and is here, alive.* It was dangerous... our game had been revealed... I only realized it too late - I was a fool for beliving your deception that tried to save my life. I was a ruined man, had sunk so low and the only thing I thought I had left was shattered before my eyes.... I went... mad .... with the pain, and only realized what I did afterwards... I saw the note you had been writing and everything crashed down on me as I realized what I had done. I ... had hoped to punish myself - I deserved no less than oblivion for what I did - and I did the closest thing that I could have in the hurry I was in.... and yet..... fate has seen to it that I was brought back... despite my efforts to the contrary.
Samantha Blaire: You saw my letter?
Sabin Duvert: *he nods slowly*
Samantha Blaire: *the world slowly seems to sink back around her* M...Mordath?
Sabin Duvert: *It feels good, to have the words that I had longed to say before, to be able to say them now*
Samantha Blaire: You did it to yourself... your memories....
Sabin Duvert: *a soft smile reaches his lips and he nods* Yes.... I am he.... and yet... I am more - I am finally whole.
Sabin Duvert: *he nods again* I couldn't bear to live with what I did.... *he lowers his eyes, shaking his head* Not in that life... and nor did I believe that I could in any other - especially if you were not there... and if I could not tell you...
Samantha Blaire: *feeling light-headed again, she slowly pulls herself into her house, motioning for Lann- Mordath to follow her*
Sabin Duvert: *he takes a deep breath and follows after her, his footsteps even and soft, virtually gliding into the house*
Samantha Blaire: *she sits heavily on a couch in the sitting area, a hand on her heart and another supporting her weight on the l arge cushion... trying to settle out the thoughts in her head- and heart*
Samantha Blaire: *so many painful memories violently pushed to the forefront of her mind again... so many emotions washing through her already weakened state*
Sabin Duvert: *he sits across from her, interlacing his long fingers and taking a deep breath as he looks over to her, trying to read the emotions that cross her face*
Samantha Blaire: *she had felt so alone- so abandoned again from Morion...and as much as she wanted to worry abuot him- something deep in her soul couldn't let her believe that someone who was so quick to abandon her by her deathbed would have a truly noble and selfless explaination to his second absence*
Samantha Blaire: You.. you should have known, Lannacus...
Samantha Blaire: that I never stopped loving you..
Sabin Duvert: *he winces* My mind was already weakened at that point... I heard what it was that I most feared... and believed it
Samantha Blaire: Then they question is... do you forgive me?
Samantha Blaire: For betraying you- if only in words
Sabin Duvert: yes... of course I do - my slight against you was infinately worse than yours - which was done to save my life. I just wish that I had the reason to see that before it was too late. But.... everything that I had been building towards had just crumbled in my hands.
Samantha Blaire: *a look of relief floods over her face*
Samantha Blaire: *she runs her shaking hands through her red hair, looking over to him*
Sabin Duvert: *he takes a deep breath himself, looking her over, speaking these words, getting things out in the open helps - seeing her alive*
Sabin Duvert: Are... you happy in this life...? I... took away from you what you had - everything you had built...
Samantha Blaire: *She opens her mouth to speaks, but hesitates- knowing what she's feeling probably isn't what he wants to hear*
Samantha Blaire: Morion has abandoned me again.... *she trails off, looking away*
Sabin Duvert: *he winces, and the name seems to draw him more to the present, remembeing the situation* Do you know why...? I thought that you two had rejoined.....
Samantha Blaire: I don't know. I have not seen him since Prom. His mind and heart was stretched thin. He saw Dawna in pain... his heart was not confident in the choice he made. And his mind was heavy from the news Airi told us. Eternity with me was not apparantly- as easy a decision for him as it was for me
Sabin Duvert: *he rolls his eyes* For a man who claims to be a dedicated knight, his actions speak of a fickle, unconfident heart. He and I .... swore a bond as young children ... though I fear we had far more in common then than we now possess.... He then to me was what I know now Astaroth to be more like - I thought that he had a stalwart heart, and a fire for learning.... and yet he seems to have let emotion dominate him and cloud his actions, losing sight of what is important to him.
Samantha Blaire: *she shrugs, trying to blink away the tears as reality and self-pity settle down around her* I was not good enough for him. He wasn't content with me... his heart wavered everytime he saw... her. Sometimes I wonder, just slightly, if he wished I would have died. For it would have made his choice an easy one...
Sabin Duvert: *a frown settled on his face* He is a fool for wavering. I did not waver in my conviction in my time.... albeit I had centuries of expierience that the boy does not. I do not believe that he could have wished death upon you.... however he was soft to let another control him.
Samantha Blaire: It doesn't matter now. We grow so fast...and all my attentions and hard work have yeilded me nothing
Sabin Duvert: Is that all you seek from this life? This second chance?
Samantha Blaire: What else do I have? Titania was a passionate woman... yet she used it for personal gain. She wanted EVERYTHING. I thought... I thought that this time I was to experience what it was like to tend to one garden and watch it bloom only for me, ya know? *she takes a sudden interest in her hands, cleaning her nails and looking distraught* I have no other abilities. I am Queen of nothing anymore. Not even My Morion... *a few tears slip down her cheek as her voice wavers*
Sabin Duvert: *he looks down, feeling the pain in her voice, and undersating what she wants*.... yet you still seek control - though this time complete control over one aspect of your life - to be happy in your own small corner of the world, happy in love.... and yet... like with me - no matter how much you try to control even the simplest thing, it seems to fall apart in your hands. Yet... the book is not closed - it is not too late.
Samantha Blaire: *she looks up to him, almost afraid to let her mind linger on what exactly he was implying*
Sabin Duvert: *he shrugs* The past is said and done, and yet the future is yet open... the past was long ago - as were our mistakes.... I realize now with what I learned from this life that things are never too late to try to save. Be it plans .... or happiness...
Samantha Blaire: *she quirks an eyebrow* Which do you wish to save?
Sabin Duvert: me? *he seems surprised, as he was mostly talking about her* I.... I seek to finish what I started in my goals... and this time not repeat my mistakes.... You.... perhaps things are not too late if he is the one you have given your time and heart if this is your "garden" - *though he seems hesitant, the memories of them together not gone from his mind by any means...*
Samantha Blaire: I don't know even know where he is
Samantha Blaire: He ignores my messages...
Sabin Duvert: *he looks downwards and shakes his head* I do not know either - I have not seen him since the prom either
Samantha Blaire: There are too many weeds in that garden now anyway. I don't think... I don't think I could trust him again
Samantha Blaire: For when I needed him the most... he wasn't there..
Sabin Duvert: *he nods* I know the feeling... I feel that I have lost most of my comfortableness with him as well
Samantha Blaire: I fear it is too late in my short life to start from seeds again
Sabin Duvert: *he frowns* Why do you say thus?
Samantha Blaire: Everyone interested in such things has found their happiness it seems
Samantha Blaire: And... even you have said before that you wish not to bother yourself with... such.. petty things...
Sabin Duvert: *shrugs* well... I have hardly been the one to keep up with that sort of news - I hardly even know more than a half dozen other fa'e.... but I am sure that there are others in similiar situations... relationships are fickle things
Sabin Duvert: *he looks down at his hands.... with his growth and his memories have come more maturity*
Sabin Duvert: Not..... in the same fashion I believe.....
Samantha Blaire: *she looks up at him, her eyes lingering on his new form... his new...very handsome form...*
Samantha Blaire: *though...a part of her was afraid of turning over that (again), something in her mind reminded her that she really never did ever STOP loving Lannacus... *
Samantha Blaire: *she was merely... forcibly removed from the situation...*
Sabin Duvert: *he pokes around at a loose string at the bottom of his shirt* I believe.... that the relationship we had... while... *he swallows* very powerful.... was perhaps not meant to be.... while we were alike in many ways... we were also very different... you of the seelie... me the unseelie... and both of us very characteric of our courts...
Samantha Blaire: *shot down before she even had the will to speak anything.... she looks away from him quickly, trying hard not to show crushed expression*
Sabin Duvert: *he winces* And... besides which... there is more to it than just that...
Samantha Blaire: But... I thought we were happy? It was not discourse in our ... that caused our downfall...
Samantha Blaire: You said yourself... that this was a second chance, yes?
Samantha Blaire: Things are never too late to try and save..?
Samantha Blaire: Perhaps some part of my heart was never fully adhered to Morion..
Samantha Blaire: Could it be he sensed that in me...?
Sabin Duvert: yess... *he draws it out* But even now... we are very different.... we are close, yes.... but... *he swears softly under his voice, forcing himself to say it before things get too out of control* There is another in my life. Someone whom with I see very eye-to-eye with
Samantha Blaire: Is that why he hesitated...
Samantha Blaire: *stops mid-sentence, her jaw just hanging open for a few moments&
Samantha Blaire: *this...certainly being news to her...*
Sabin Duvert: *that loose string is very interesting to him*
Samantha Blaire: *the past- which certainly seems very close tonight, swells in her chest*
Samantha Blaire: Another...? *she gapes*
Sabin Duvert: *he nods slowly, forcing himself to remain stoic in his resolve* ... Astaroth...
Samantha Blaire: *her face faults as - what only a few seconds ago seemed the crystal clear answer and solution to her problems- shatters around her*
Sabin Duvert: *he winces, not able to look her in the face*
Samantha Blaire: *she buries her face in her hands, wanting to shrink into the couch, both embarassed and trying not to relapse into a complete breakdown in front of him. Why was it her nature to get so emotional so quicky...?*
Samantha Blaire: *it seemed like the answer to everything... Lannacus coming back to seek her forgiveness....*
Samantha Blaire: *talks of second chances and saving herself from the grief she had been feeling*
Samantha Blaire: *After all...wasn't it Mordath who wouldn't leave her side as she lay dying...?*
Sabin Duvert: I could not keep you in the dark any longer... I know that now - and it would have caused more pain had I said nothing....
Sabin Duvert: I... realize that now...
Samantha Blaire: ((Btw- although Mordath can't read her mind- he can read her emotions very clearly... he feels them- not as if they are his OWN, but he feels every bit of what she is feeling))
Sabin Duvert: *he winces, feeling the anguish and pain, and oppressive aloneness that consumes PurrPurr, feeling guilty*
Sabin Duvert: *a frustrated frown comes to his face, and a bit of the boyishness he had not so long ago surfaces again - was this not what had happened with Raeith as well?? Being held responsible for NOT having done anything? For others having expectations of him - for feelings that he had dedicated elsewhere or had not anticipated? THIS was the problems with women that he had had before...*
Samantha Blaire: Then why did you even come here, Lannacus? To make me realize my own inability to move on while you have so easily...
Sabin Duvert: *and yet... he had known PurrPurr since they were children... known Titania since LONG before that...*
Samantha Blaire: *she stands, pacing around quickly*
Samantha Blaire: Perhaps this life is a second chance for you-
Samantha Blaire: but for me it feels like I am still paying for my sins!
Sabin Duvert: is is a chance for all of us *he interrupts*
Sabin Duvert: Is that not what we were told?
Sabin Duvert: No life is perfect or smooth, and we cannot expect that just because a second opportunity is presented that it is necessarily favorably inclined
Sabin Duvert: our lives are what we make of it - and what chance throws our way.
Sabin Duvert: If we succumb to misfortune and let it overtake us than we will continue to repeat mistakes and dig ourselves deeper - I see that now. That is what I did before, and what I am DETERMINED not to do in this life.
Samantha Blaire: *she wipes hurriedly at the tears running down her face* I realized what I had done wrong before!
Samantha Blaire: I was too ambitious. I wanted everything, Mordath
Samantha Blaire: I wanted... fame. I wanted passion..
Sabin Duvert: ....
Sabin Duvert: as did I...
Samantha Blaire: I wanted love, and power, and respect...
Samantha Blaire: And I tried to juggle it all ...
Sabin Duvert: and who is to say that you cannot have it all..?
Samantha Blaire: I did, for a time..
Samantha Blaire: but it was too much
Samantha Blaire: It destroyed me!
Sabin Duvert: *he glowers, not wanting to hear that That is what she faults her failure upon*
Samantha Blaire: It took away my sense of control...
Sabin Duvert: you could not control every aspect and so you failed at all of them...
Samantha Blaire: it took away you
Samantha Blaire: It took away my life...
Samantha Blaire: And so I thought... I thought that maybe success is only measured one life at a time..
Samantha Blaire: I mean... a peasant girl with a family, and a husband... why... she could have been just as happy as me on my Throne..
Samantha Blaire: It all seemed to clear to me..
Sabin Duvert: *he makes a face, obviously not willing to be content with such a lifestyle*
Samantha Blaire: Why be the Queen of everything when I could be the Queen of one person?
Sabin Duvert: That is another place you and I differ....
Samantha Blaire: No, I don't think so.
Sabin Duvert: If you can find happiness in a person, that Fate willing, do so....
Samantha Blaire: It obviously didn't work
Sabin Duvert: *he shrugs*
Samantha Blaire: I put EVERYTHING into him, Mordath!
Samantha Blaire: I even risked losing your friendship for him
Samantha Blaire: And look at what good that did me!
Sabin Duvert: *he takes a breath, remembering how she and he had pulled away from him at that point*
Samantha Blaire: No one respects me anymore..
Samantha Blaire: Hell, no one even came to see me as I lay dying..
Sabin Duvert: have you even left your home since the prom?
Samantha Blaire: I miss feeling important...
Sabin Duvert: *he nods*
Sabin Duvert: so... you feel as if you had taken the wrong approach.... that a quiet family life is not what could make you happy...
Sabin Duvert: you miss being Queen.
Samantha Blaire: No one loves me anymore. Everyone used to love me...
Samantha Blaire: *the bitterness very obvious in her voice by this point*
Sabin Duvert: *he sighs*
Sabin Duvert: Then do what is necessary.
Samantha Blaire: I can't make you love me. -.-
Samantha Blaire: *then she stops, really wishing she hadn't said that out loud**
Sabin Duvert: *mordath cuts off his words, sighing and standing up himself, going to a window and looking out with arms crossed* This is a very familiar conversation, and it is no easier the second time around. I did not think that you as well had had these pretenses....
Samantha Blaire: I second guessed my choice with Morion when I learned of out past.
Sabin Duvert: *he turns back to her with a very haggard expression* In this life you are my closest female friend, PurrPurr... in our previous it was much much more...
Samantha Blaire: Did it not stop and make you think?
Samantha Blaire: Even for a moment?
Sabin Duvert: I fear a repeat of mistakes.... despite hind knowledge...... and... despite reconciliation... there is much pain behind the love we had for eachother. Enough pain that even with the memories blocked it put me at a disfavorable inclination towards relationships in general in this life.... and even more so for one between you and I
Samantha Blaire: Aren't I the cliche then. *her voice turns into a sarcastic sing-song* The Queen that had everything in her life she ever wanted but love...
Sabin Duvert: *he frowns*
Sabin Duvert: YOu did have love, did you not? *he asks, a tone of pain slipping into his own voice*
Samantha Blaire: *her exterior is cold, but Mordath still feels the roaring faltering of her emotions beneath the surface*
Samantha Blaire: Whoever said "Tis better to have love and lost than to never have loved at all" was a fucking moron.
Sabin Duvert: would you have preferred to be alone your entire existance? Were you unhappy with the feelings you felt? With Morion or I??
Sabin Duvert: *he snorts derisively* Those memories at least were nto taken away from you.
Samantha Blaire: Whats the point of loving someone if they do not love you in return!
Sabin Duvert: I am no God ~! You ask me these questions I cannot answer. I merely ask you if you would have rather been alone your entire life??
Samantha Blaire: Than to have it all ripped away from me...?
Samantha Blaire: Yes
Samantha Blaire: !
Samantha Blaire: I would rather be back in my castle with Oberon than to stand here and face you while you tell me it was never meant to be!
Sabin Duvert: *he gives a bitter look* I locked away my own memories and regretted every moment of it in this life. They are finally back and I can tell you that despite the pain - it is better than the anguish of having your SELF locked away from you
Samantha Blaire: I would trade you places if I could.
Samantha Blaire: Now it seems our situations are reversed. You have your memories, and your second chances...
Sabin Duvert: *he gives a bitter look* The knowledge of the spell that I cast is now back with me - perhaps you should be careful of what you wish.
Sabin Duvert: If you are truly under this much pain...... I know how you feel. I do.... and I regret the decision I made.
Samantha Blaire: Tell me this- had you known you would be reconnected with me later in life would you still have sought another?
Sabin Duvert: *he sighs, frustrated* There was so much pain...
Samantha Blaire: Really? Someone inside me I felt thankful my last vision was of you.
Samantha Blaire: I don't blame you for what you did.. .I blame myself
Sabin Duvert: *he sighs* You should blame me... it was my fault... *then he looks bitter* Or Arkoth... he sabotauged us from the begining... And I still do not fully know why. I wish I had my memories when I faced him - I would have had MANY questions for the bastard.
Samantha Blaire: *Purr doesn't seem to be listening anymore, she is staring out the window- trying hard (and failing) to block her emotions from herself... feeling very lost and rejected at this moment*
Sabin Duvert: *he sighs, realizing that he's not getting through anymore*
Sabin Duvert: *he rises* If you wish to be happy, then leave this house and get out - you will only sink in your own misery here and fail in this life as well.
Sabin Duvert: *he looks back to her* My frienship, and my alliance - is still with you if you so desire it.
Sabin Duvert: As is my offer.
Samantha Blaire: *Purr wraps her arms around herself, shoulders quivering...taking everything in her not to break down in sobs... not wanting Mordath to see her like that... knowing he views that as a weakness*
Sabin Duvert: *he turns, not wanting to be around for that any more than she wants him to be* You know where to find me if you need me.
Samantha Blaire: Mordath ~
Sabin Duvert: *he looks back over his shoulder*
Samantha Blaire: *her words turn out choked, and strained*
Samantha Blaire: *she just open and closes her mouth a few times... not knowing why she called out to him.. a part of her just not wanting to see him leave*
Sabin Duvert: *he waits for a moment, feeling the anguish in her, and part of him sympathizing, wantting to go to her... and another feeling bitter and cold himself, resentful.*
Samantha Blaire: *she just shrugs a whispers* It was nice to see you...
Sabin Duvert: *he nods quietly* I wanted to apologize.... to let you know that I was now back...
Samantha Blaire: I hope you're happy with your second chance. I mean that
Sabin Duvert: *a small sincere smile comes to his face this time, and he nods* And I honestly wish for you to find your happiness as well, Titania.... if there is any other way I can help you.... I would be more than happy to try to do so...