"You hate me, child, for I am who you wish to be. I am what you desire. I am the beat of your heart. The breath in your lungs. I am who you ever were, and I represent what you will always be. You hate me, for I am you…" Once again the wisp of a creepy rumble cried out from the depths of his psyche, his eyes seeming to glow for a mere fraction of a second as he set his intent gaze upon his visage, tormenting himself once more for the fact that he was who he was.

The realization wasn’t enough. It was never enough to merely realize you are who you are. It wasn’t enough to merely know. The difficulty lied in actually accepting the truth from the depths of your being, that you no longer are who you were. That you would never return to former glory once you were dragged into the pits of the new hell that you brought upon yourself.

He was gazing intently into the mirror again. He had been doing that often, slowly allowing his eyes to slip to red, his blue fading out, as though overtaken. No true reason seemed to satisfy him. No true method of explanation of what he had become, versus what he was. He was once a normal human boy. Sure, he had his obsessions with monsters, but there were plenty of children who did….Maybe. He wasn’t prepared to change into one of them…

"My love…" Samantha purred, coming up behind him and wrapping her arms daintily around his middle, her fingers idly tracing gentle designs into his chest, "Why do you gaze so intently upon an image that causes you naught but unrest?" She pressed her cheek to the dip of his spine, slowly nuzzling him.

He turned to face her, pressing her cheek to his chest as he gently kissed the top of her head, sighing for a moment and staring out ahead of him. "My love, it is not as though I choose to torment myself so… It is just…" He sighed and turned away ever so slightly. "It is just that I am not what I once was. I am no longer a simple human… I am no longer sure of my control over my own person…"

"My dearest Sabin, you do not need to worry of such things.. It is who you are, and yet I love you still. I love you greater with every passing day, how could you believe that anything could ever change that.. Do you fear that you shall hurt me?" She had pulled away slightly, gently rubbing his cheek with the back of her hand, gazing intently into his eyes.

"No, Samantha, I know that no matter how great a hold on my body the creature may have, I would never allow him to hurt you. I would never allow pain to come to you because of it… Well.. No greater than already has passed to your being.." Shaking his head, he turned away from her once again.

Smiling gently, she idly began to rub his lower back, resting her cheek upon his chest once again. "I do not worry about your harming me. I would never have to worry about such a thing, for you, and only you, are able to make me feel safe within your arms, no matter what. You are my desire. The beat of my heart. The breath in my lungs. You are who I ever was, and who I will always be. In the deepest part of my soul.. You are me…"